I’m in a struggle trying to get a grip on my walk with God. I feel that I’ve fallen away and it’s a fight to get back , so many times I’ve heard and even used the word backslidden. Have I lost my salvation? What help can I receive to get back in right standing with God and grow?
Sorry it took so long to get back with you. The great thing about the grace of God is that our salvation does not depend on us but on God. The Lord Jesus died and paid for all your sins (past, present and even future). God’s gift to you is eternal life. That gift of life is received by believing in the death, burial and resurrection of Jesus Christ as the payment of your sins and your acceptance with God.
Ephesians 1:6,7 says you are “To the praise of the glory of his grace, wherein he hath made us accepted in the beloved. In whom we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of sins, according to the riches of his grace.”
You may feel more close to Him at times and far away at other times, but God is always faithful, you are always in his favor, you are always accepted in his Son, you stand forgiven.
Now concerning your growth. That comes by learning to walk in the Sprit, in the truth of who God has made you in His Son. That comes through reading the scriptures (especially Romans – Philemon), speaking to God is prayer – as your Father, and fellowshipping with the Saints – both in Bible study and other times as well. When you fail, get back to doing these things that will help you grow. Learn to mind the things of the Spirit of God. Read Romans chapters 3-8 to get started.